The loss of a loved one is heartbreaking. Three years ago today I lost my beautiful Mum to Cancer. It wasn't the first time in my life that I had experienced loss but it was the most devastating. Those who have lost someone in their lives will understand how it feels but there will always be people who think time heals and you eventually move on.
For me, there is no healing and you never move on. You simply exist, you live because you have no choice. There will forever be a hole in my heart. I try not to think too much about those that have past because it upsets me too much but sometimes I have to feel that pain. On anniversaries, like today, or birthdays and Christmas, I have to think of those I have lost and I will always wish them back.
Our Hearts Will Always Touch
When I laid there beside you,
Could you feel me there?
My arms were wrapped around you,
And I was stroking your hair.
I was talking about all the good times,
For me they were every single day.
I wanted you to feel love and comfort,
And happy in some way.
I watched your every breath,
And prayed that each one wasn't your last.
The time we got to share together,
Went by too quick...Too fast.
I wanted you to wake up,
Please Mum...Open your eyes.
Tell me this is a nightmare,
And not our goodbyes.
As your last breath grew closer,
We lay there peacefully together.
My heart continually breaking,
Because I wanted you forever.
Then there it was,
Your final breath of air.
I didn't want to believe it,
This is so cruel and not fair.
I held your beautiful face,
And prayed you'd breath again.
I wasn't ready for you to go,
I couldn't admit that this was the end.
But then I realized that you were now in peace,
And not suffering anymore.
You were beginning the life of an Angel,
And your body would no longer be sore.
I held you close and squeezed you tight,
And tried to say goodbye.
I've lost my Mum and my number one best friend,
All my heart could do is cry.
I slowly got up,
I wanted so much to stay.
I leaned over and gave you one more kiss,
It was so hard to walk away.
Mum, you are my entire world,
And I miss you so very much.
I wish I could feel your lovable cuddle,
And your soft and gentle touch.
But for now I have to wait,
Until we meet again.
You will always be in my heart and thoughts,
My dear Mum and best friend.
Always and Forever,
Our hearts will always touch.
Always and Forever,
Your baby girl loves you so much